It’s been a while since I watched a newly-released Disney film. The last one was Frozen II back in 2019. I have a soft spot for Disney movies but I don’t know why I wasn’t able to watch the 2020-2021 releases
(must be all that anime, k-drama, and western series that I binge-watched). So I’ve decided to use this year to catch up with what I missed. Starting with Encanto.
There’s a handful of movies that moved my heart and all of them involve the concept of a family. To be honest, if I had to do a “try not to cry” challenge and they showed me something related to family, I would 100%, without a doubt, shed a tear. Just like how I did today when we watched Encanto (massive thanks to my cousin who got us a copy from his pirate cruising on the internet). I love how Disney continues to explore not just better art style but also plot and character representation. Encanto captured something that a lot of families go through. I couldn’t relate to the idea of pressure or expectation from family members or the feeling of being out of place, but I did see a glimpse of my family in the scenes where the characters were arguing and throwing blame.
Not one month passes where no major fight breaks in this household. It’s been like that for as long as I can remember but I’m still waiting for the day that this unhealthy tradition ceases. It really breaks my heart more than it irritates my ears to hear shouting that there even came a point where I had to cry just to make my aunt and grandma stop quarreling. It would always start from a small misunderstanding that could be easily solved by one peaceful talk. But one of them would always find a way to bring up past events over and over and over again, adding fuel to the fire. When I’m not around, my mom would often be the one to stop the madness but even she couldn’t stop her emotions from getting the best of her sometimes.
I can’t put all the blame on my grandma for mistreating my mother and my aunt during their childhood because I know that she was just a lost soul back then. But then again, that was the past. She’s been given so many chances to change for the better, I even saw her getting involved in weekly bible studies when I was younger but I still wonder why her heart seemed so hard and dark and troubled. Whenever I do reach out to her, she’d shut herself off and wouldn’t consider help.
At this point, I just want my aunt to lower her pride for a while and understand where her mother is truly coming from instead of making things worse by talking back. I know God is merciful to bring peace over them. It all comes down to whether or not they accept it both.
Now I know this is a little personal but I don’t mind telling other people about this ’cause I really had to take it out of my chest. I developed a habit of talking back when I was very young because that’s what I saw often. And I really don’t want my little sister to experience the same thing that’s why I keep hoping for the resolution to this long-running tension. Like how Mirabel, her abuela, and the rest of the Madrigal family made up towards the end of the film.